The house itself was part of the show. People wandered through the rooms, and took it in. The weather couldn't have been more perfect. The floor to ceiling windowed doors were open. The night air coming through, and the music going out. It's hard for me to really enjoy the moment, because I'm also the host and sound person and greeter, and manic caretaker of everyone's good time. I don't feel it was my best performance, and I really wanted it to be my "Best" performance. It fell short for me in that category, but it almost always does. Now I await the depression that follows. Oh, here it comes.

And then, suddenly, I'm brimming with self doubt. An all encompassing, negative feeling about everything I'm doing. It came upon me from a lot of little things. Varmints chewing away at the base of me, weakening me. I guess it doesn't take that much, I guess my base is not all that strong. I've never felt like I have a good voice, a consistent voice. I'm probably not the first singer who doesn't care for the sound of his own voice. Sometimes people tell me how much they like my voice, and I think well about myself for a few days, but compliments are fleeting. They're like a drug that wears off. More, more, more, more please.

The big Gordon House show is Saturday, and I'm a mess. 

The drawing pictured, is the concept for the cover of the new album. Carrie Wilkins is the artist, and she doing a great job of bringing my ideas into the world. Thanks Carrie. All in all, things are gonna be ok.

New album title? Chasing Down A Far Away Sound.

I went to bed too late, and got up too early. Now I'm drinking coffee, and will be a grumpy old man by 11am. I can't help myself.

I woke with thoughts of the Gordon House show. How grateful I am for everyone who spent hard earned money on tickets. I must tell you I was real bothered by having to charge $25 for a ticket. It was the only way I could afford to do this show, and I felt it was special enough to warrant  the ticket price. So, again, I say much love and gratitude to all you ticket buyers. I will do everything I can to make it worth your investment. 

Pictured is the bathroom upstairs at the Gordon House. The house is modest sized, but so full of home, heart, detail, love. 

And so I woke with a brain steeming with how I can make this show special. Worried that I'll fall short. I better get some more coffee, just another cup.